[Blogged by Jay Yencich]
America, I think we need to start seeing different zombie shows. No, it’s not you, it’s me. Too much has changed and I don’t feel connected anymore. It’s not that I didn’t enjoy our time together. I did, I swear. I do remember all that we’ve been through together, all the thrills and the excitement, blood throbbing in our ears, nights spent huddled on the couch entranced by every word and movement.
In the beginning, everything felt so right. It was like a whole new world was opening up to us and we were like explorers in it, charting it out, discovering it together as a team. All those people we met, how they were such characters, and how everything felt so vital and real, like it was us against the world. And I want to hold on to those memories, believe me, I’ve treasured them for so long, but lately, I just feel like there’s something missing. There isn’t the chemistry anymore like we had in the start. It’s like we just shuffle on, dragging our feet, making noises but not really saying anything to each other. Lately, I keep getting stuck on the bad things, it’s all I see or think about anymore. I can’t seem to make out what was so good about what we had before.
I was there with you in season one, when Rick and Glenn got all decked out in gore but protected themselves with plastic sheeting to prevent any vectors of contamination. How exhilarating it was to be sneaking around like that with everything at stake! But then in season two, it was like everyone forgot about that, all screaming and stabbing wildly. God, what a mess that was! I know season two was a rough time for both of us, that feeling of lost purpose, but we pulled through then and stuck with it.
I stayed even when things got awkward, when Andrea got involved with that sociopath and we tried to tell her not to but she did it anyway. Even when he was exposed for what he really was, it was like she forgot all about it the next time some smooth talking Southern boy walked into her life. I don’t want to seem callous, I really don’t, but I guess she got what was coming to her. It didn’t seem like she could help herself.
And the Governor? We knew he was always tripping over his ego even if he was trying hard to make his way in the world. And at those parties when he said and did all those things, we knew he was bad news then, but he went through all that song and dance of “I can change! I can care about people!” and for a moment we believed, even though we knew we shouldn’t. How we sighed and gave each other knowing looks when things turned out that way! They didn’t mean it, it wasn’t their fault. At least I didn’t want to admit so at the time.
But then there were all those other people we used to spend time with, all those hardy and world-weary survivors who seemed to have so much potential in them. It broke my heart piece by piece, how they kept making the same mistakes again and again, kept thinking that zombiedom was something to be cured or treated with therapy like addiction or compulsive behavior, acting like there was no difference between them and the others. And you know what? I started to believe them, but not in the way they wanted. When that incident happened with the little girls, I know I should have and I’m scared to even admit it, but I felt nothing. That’s when I think I started to realize that it was over, and it had been over for a long time.
[The New Heartthrob]
I’ve been seeing this new show, from France, called Les Revenants? Don’t give me that “oh you have a thing for accents then,” you don’t know what it’s like. It’s really sweet, thoughtful, considerate, deep. It’s like it has a fresh new perspective on everything I felt I had already seen before. Everything is so alluring now, so mysterious.
It introduces me to the most interesting people. First I met Camille; she’s young, but she’s been through a lot for her age. One day, she was riding a bus on some school trip and it lost control and crashed into a ravine. It seemed like she lost everything, but then she got up again and went back to town, no worse for wear, just a little hungrier. Poor thing doesn’t even remember what happened! But by the time she came to, it was four years later, and get this, her twin sister had hooked up with the boy she used to have a crush on and drinks with him all the time now! The nerve! But it was hard on Léna too I guess, hard on the whole family. Their parents, Jérôme and Claire Séguret, separated because of the grief, Claire started seeing Pierre, who’s new in town and works up at the shelter, Jérôme has been in group counseling for families of the bus crash victims, though I don’t know if it’s really helping. It’s all very complex, and to have Camille walk back into their lives like that wasn’t easy on them.
It seems like she isn’t the only one coming back after a tragic episode and all the time that has passed. There’s Simon, he used to play bass in a local rock band, and he’s trying to hook back up with Adèle, who used to work at the bar? He left her at the altar and disappeared. She and her daughter are living with Thomas, the police chief. And Victor, he’s a quiet little boy who doesn’t seem to have any family. He’s really taken to Julie, you know, that nurse who was stabbed in the tunnel by that serial killer seven years ago? They seem to care for each other, but strange things keep happening around Victor and I don’t think she knows what to do with him. And Serge, that creepy brother of Toni down at Lake Pub who used to hunt all the time? He’s back too, but he likes to keep to himself out at their family cabin deep in the woods. It seems like a lot of people are coming back now for such a small town, all the way up there in the mountains. People are starting to talk, asking why it’s just some people and not others and I don’t think anyone knows.
But listen to me ramble on about all these people when I don’t even know if you’ll meet them. I think you should, so I don’t want tell you too much, they should be given the chance to introduce themselves. Maybe I’ll talk about the places we go and the things it shows me— they all seem so alive when the camera is on them. There’s the tunnel, of course, there’s the mirrors, the water, flickering lights, all the animals out in the woods. There’s one window in the Séguret house that seems like whole character unto itself. And the shadows. People are always coming or going into the shadows and everything happens so quickly when they’re inside them. I feel it’s more than just for show, like it means something on a deeper level.
More than anything, I feel Les Revenants is challenging me, not in a mean way or like it thinks I don’t know any better and can’t tell the difference. It’s making me ask questions about myself and giving me room to grow. It doesn’t have that visceral thing like we had from before, it doesn’t feel like we’re fighting just to maintain our way of life, at least not all of the time, but less is more in some relationships. It makes me wonder about how I’m living, more than just death and all that stuff, I know some like to deal with that just to pretend they’re moody and troubled or profound.
But Les Revenants asks me about grief, asks me about the people that have gone out of our lives, whatever the circumstances, and how we deal with that and what we might do if they came back to us as if no time had passed. Would we reject some of them, keep others at our peril? What if they came back for everyone we knew, en masse? It makes me wonder if it would be worth it, if the consequences wouldn’t be greater now that we’ve moved on. Where do they even belong? How would they find their place in how we live now? I wonder they haven’t marked us in some way that we can’t move on from, if we ever really change at all. I think we do, but not everyone does. Maybe some people can, maybe some can’t.
Anyway, I know I’m probably just babbling now, puppy love and all. But I think this is the right show for me right now. We even like the same music, since we both listen to Mogwai. I’d really like to introduce you to it, I think you can find it on Amazon Instant Video or Netflix? I’d really like if you two gave each other a chance. It really seems to have ambition and is working hard on a second season, I hear.